Missed Opportunity

 I will tell the full tale someday, but for now, let's discuss the Better Half.

One day, a friend told me about an opportunity and I was intrigued, so I took it. I was told not to come back the next day after a day's trial because the employer only required one person, and I wasn't that person.

I was enraged since this program was designed for beginners, and since I am a beginner, I met all of the prerequisites. I went home pained, scrolled through the status of those who had shared memes on WhatsApp (I love ona die), l laughed, screenshot, and reposted.

Funny enough, before I left the office, someone fresh arrived, so they needed additional personnel.

Friends speculated that it was because I didn't say much during the interview; nevertheless, the friend who informed me of the opportunity said that as a friend of the boss, he could play politics and talk to the boss, and I would be given the opportunity; unfortunately, I declined.

A month later, I learned that the company had laid off all of its employees and that the account was in the red. And I had to ask myself the same question I asked when I was turned down: "why me, why single me out?" Was I unique enough not to have a get-and-lose opportunity?

What bothers me the most is what if I rigged my way in, got the job, and the company was temporarily closed after a month. 

As a typical Nigerian, I would suppose my sin had caught up with me and I was being punished, but this is a lie, however, I will live with a lie for the rest of my life.

People will always tell you to fight for what is really yours, for what you desire.

And this got me thinking: how do we know what we should fight for and what we shouldn't give up on? We may be fighting for something that isn't ours. What if I assumed the opportunity was for me and fought for what was rightfully mine, rigging my way in?"

My prayer point shifted as a result of this occurrence.

I'm not looking for quick fixes. Help me figure out what I need to fight for and what I don't need so l can let go of.

And I must never, ever get in the way of God's plan for my life because of what I believe is best for me. 

It's times like this that EVEN IF by MERCY ME resonate in my head. "I know the sorrows and l know the hurt will all go away but EVEN IF you don't, my hope is you alone".